Friday, 3 April 2009
What About Time?
Perhaps the mind can just about grasp the fact of no time. Time is dependent on memory and clues, on plans and speculation. But in fact, there is only ever this. It's not even now, because now infers "then", and "what will be"; and the past is always gone, the future never here. Recovering addicts in 12 step programs put it ever so delicately thus: with one foot in yesterday and one in tomorrow, you're pissing all over today. Keep in mind that however amusingly pithy the aphorism, it's still a message of becoming; becoming more involved in your life, becoming more present in the moment, in fact becoming a paragon of total presence in the moment through so much meditation your butt falls asleep. Awaken, butt! It is only ever presence. Whatever the thoughts of tomorrow or regrets of yesterday, whatever the last move was and the next move will be; whatever feelings of nostalgia or glorious anticipation arise, they arise in this. It is always this everlasting moment. It is not happening in time, it is simply happening. There is no past or future, and the present can't be quantified. When is it now? It's...now. No, now! But doesn't it take some time to say "now"? When does the future start, and the past become the past? How infinitesimal is the present? It isn't how small it is, it's how boundless it is. There is only ever this, an everlasting moment of love, in its endless manifestations.